The Obsession

Betrayal is my enemy
Your anger knows no bounds.
Over and over in my head
I tried to make sense of what
Was not within reason.
What horrible act could have
Caused you to behave
With such cunning cruelty
Such sly subtlety
Celebrating each wound
Delivered?
The conclusion came to me
Washed over me like a
Pounding wave, drenching me
With bitterness and despair
There was no reason for
The punishment you delivered,
An endless supply of malice
Because an obsession
Is never rational

Does not include love, no
Especially when weaknesses
Are exploited and private
Moments exposed without
Permission.
I sit alone and ponder
How I will ever forgive
Your inhumanity, and
Most of all, I am angered
That my value of forgiveness
Divine, turn the other cheek -
You robbed me of this
Along with my innocence and
Trust and faith, even hope.
Weary, I get just a little lift
I say, someone like this
Will not rob me of my soul
For I will struggle to accept,
Determined to forgive,
Knowing that you deserve my pity
As you cannot be happy,
No, these are the actions
Of someone who wrestles
With The Darkness,
A battle right now he cannot
Win......